The Grabber

This is a recent experience I have had that's quite different from many I have had - updates will be posted as they come.

I have many disturbing experiences with ghosts that do not respond to my communications, but this new group of spirits is quite tacit despite the ample attempts to commune on my part. I want to tell you about the ghost I have dubbed: the Grabber.

At night, laying in bed and asleep - I am awoken by a violent dream and feel as though someone is spooning me. I am alone in bed. I figure it's just the dream, as I try not to take anything seriously until I am well awake or I feel like there is no emergency.
A lot of spirits like to touch me, hug me, caress my hair - affectionately. It's not weird. I smiled and figured a spirit was just trying to comfort me during a particularly painful night. I shrug this off and try and get some sleep.
Again awoken by the feeling someone is touching me, this time grabbing my wrist. I communicate firmly, "this is inappropriate, I do not like this, and please leave until you are ready to be civil." My wrist hurts but I manage to get to sleep again.
There are noises in the house, pops, moans, the sound as if someone is walking on the roof and another is gently punching the nearby door. Gently punching is weird in itself. I start to get pissed off - I want sleep - but at the same time: why is this spirit acting this way?

The next day, after a night of ignoring all these sounds - (the same sounds occurring any time I am alone in the house and sometimes when my SO is there) I am making myself breakfast. Everything is very quiet. The cats are (I am visiting my SO's house) asleep and calm. As I go to put the coconut milk back into the fridge, I feel a hard full-handed pinch (as if using all the fingers not just forefinger and thumb)  pinch my hip. I howl in pain as I lean against the kitchen counter to stabilize myself.  I ask my spirit companions to try and speak to this spirit as soon as possible, maybe try and keep it away from me.

Nothing else happens that day.

That night, it's cool and the neighborhood is quiet - only two crickets and thick silence. I slip into bed and read a little bit, put my book away after ten minutes and then turn off the light. I almost fall asleep when the noises start. The talking. Like many spirits, it sounds like two people talking in the next room - you can hear it very well but can make out very little. Muffled. Sounds like these ones are talking about someone in a derogative manner, mocking someone in exaggeration then laughing. I clear my mind and open it to the ether's conversations and try and see if I can understand it. I can make out a couple of swear words, but apart from that, it's like trying to squeeze myself through a cat door. Putting your "feelers" out to listen to a specific conversation, even if it seems close by, can be restrictive for various reasons. Perhaps this reason was that I was frightened.

Two days went by with nothing occurring, and then it came at me like a ton of bricks - someone pushed my back - two big hands - and went through me. I put up my defenses, a meditation where you build a spherical wall around yourself, and sat down so the next time I wouldn't be knocked down. When a spirit forcefully pushes through you, it can hurt a lot. Having a pain disorder, I cannot say how much it can hurt a normal person - but I can say it is not mitigated by any pain medication or alcohol (I am not a drinker anymore, it dulls my senses including spiritual sense). It is the same as normal pain in feeling, but there are a few things different - such as you are sometimes able to brush it off like the pain in a dream upon waking, and if you have other sensory input (like a feather brushing against you or the head of the sun) it tends to go away much faster.

For the next few days I get grabbed on my wrists, backside, hip, and ankles. The cats react to the spirit when he is near them. One hides or jumps, the other meows at it. Cute cute cute, but also off putting. Is it grabbing them?

Things start to die down in terms of shocking events until the day before yesterday. I was sweeping gently and slowly, getting the cat hair islands and the dust bunny ranches, enjoying myself (I am strange that way) and singing to the cats as I feel hands on my bottom. I assumed my SO came home and turned to give him a hug when instead there stood a dark figure with dark grey eyes and a jar shaped head and neck. His shoulders were bulky. It was having a hard time manifesting or communicating his shape (I can rarely tell when ghosts manifest or are just showing themselves to me through mind to mind communication.. I frequently ask: can you see that person? to people around me) - the midriff and legs appear and disappear. There are no other facial features. The spirit disappears. The broom is pulled away from my hand forcefully and drops lifelessly to the ground. The cats are hiding before even the broom's sound. One cat either sneezes or hisses. Hard to tell lol. I pray that it doesn't follow me home, and I take a break from it after an hour of showing I was not affected by his menacing behavior. Just like bullies, you cannot react in the way they want. You have to try and calm yourself. Although that's a little hard, and some bullies get mad at it, quite counterproductive.

That day the spirit also follows my SO as he walks around his home, watching him.  His (the spirit) noises sound like a tight throat emitting its lowest possible note - almost sounding like he is mocking both of us. His body seems almost tangible.

I hope I never have to tell my SO about this spirit. As spirits go, I think he's trying to get a rise out of us. Maybe he wants my SO to move out. Maybe he is just an a55 and likes to play pranks on us. The last thing I want to do is leave this place. It's my home away from home and a place where myself and my Significant Other can be together alone.

I need more data in order to understand this person. I have had difficult spirits before, but never any spirit that touches me so often. Pinching and grabbing. Right now I have my theories but I will keep them to myself until I am more convinced. I encourage you to contact me with your ideas as well.

More posts to come. Been a busy couple of months!

Yours faithfully,
Luciella